Sunday, 1 December 2019


Since Sunday 12 September 2004, I've been reviewing every film I see at the cinema, on video or DVD, and on TV. The reviews are supposed to be "ickle": small and easy to digest, giving you just enough about the film to help you decide whether or not you want to see it. Sometimes the reviews are very short, so if you'd like me to expand any of them, let me know by email and I'll add to it.

Update (Tuesday 5 January 2010): I haven't reviewed any films since Brüno (in a vain attempt to streamline my life and get on with my DPhil without unnecessary clutter) but I've still added these films to this list and given them a rating. These are the films without hyperlinks, such as The Boondock Saints.

Update (Monday 11 January 2010): I'm now going to try reviewing films within Twitter's limit of 140 characters, starting with The Road.

ickleRatings explained:
* a must-see: miss this and you're a damn fool
+ pooty good: a fair crack of the whip
= so-so: won't give you rabies, but don't break a leg to see it
- stinks royally: avoid like the plague

About Time (in-flight movie) +
About Time (DVD) *
The Adjustment Bureau +
Adult Life Skills +
Adventureland +
Afghan Star =
Aileen: Life and Death of a Serial Killer =
Alan Partridge: Alpha Papa =
Alexander -
Alice +
Alice Doesn't Live Here Anymore +
All Good Things =
All the President’s Men +
All This Mayhem +
American Hustle +
Amores perros =
Amy +
Anchorman: The Legend of Ron Burgundy =
Andre the Giant +
Annie Hall *
L'Argent +
Argo +
The Armstrong Lie +
Arrival +
Arthur Christmas (3D) +
The Artist *
The Assassination of Richard Nixon =
Atonement +
Avatar +
Away We Go +

The Babadook +
Baby Driver +
Bad Education =
Bananas =
Band of Brothers *
Batman Begins -
Battle of the Sexes +
The Beat That My Heart Skipped (AKA De battre mon coeur s'est arrete) =
A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood +
Before Midnight *
Before Sunrise *
Before Sunset *
Beginners +
Behind the Candelabra -
Be Kind Rewind -
Belleville Rendez-Vous +
Benda Bilili! +
Bend It Like Beckham =
Best Shot (AKA Hoosiers) -
The Bicycle Thieves (AKA Ladri di biciclette) *
Bigger Stronger Faster* +
Big Hero 6 +
The Big Lebowski *
The Big Short +
The Big Sick +
Black Hawk Down +
BlacKkKlansman +
Black Orpheus =
Black Panther =
The Blind Side +
Bloom =
Blow Out +
Blow-Up =
Blue Blood +
Blue Jasmine +
The Blues Brothers =
The Bodyguard -
Bohemian Rhapsody +
Bombshell +
The Book of Life =
Booksmart *
The Boondock Saints =
Borat: Cultural Learnings of America for Make Benefit Glorious Nation of Kazakhstan +
The Bourne Identity +
The Bourne Supremacy +
The Bourne Ultimatum +
Bowling for Columbine +
Boyhood +
The Breakfast Club -
Breaking Away +
Breaking the Waves =
Brick +
Bridesmaids =
Bridge of Spies +
Bring It On =
Broadway Danny Rose =
Broken Flowers +
Brokeback Mountain =
Brooklyn +
Brüno =
A Bug's Life =
Bugsy Malone +
Bullets Over Broadway +
Butterfly on a Wheel =

Café Society +
Call Me By Your Name *
Calvary +
Capitalism: A Love Story +
Capote =
Captain Fantastic +
Captain Phillips +
Captain Underpants =
Carnage (cinema) +
Carnage (TV) *
Carol (35mm) +
Casino Royale +
Cassandra's Dream =
Catching Hell +
Catfish +
Cemetery Junction =
Certain Women +
CGI-brows =
Charge: The Electric TT =
Chariots of Fire =
Check It =
Chelsea on the Rocks =
Chinatown =
Chocolat +
A Christmas Story +
The Circle =
City Slickers -
Closer (cinema) +
Closer (DVD) +
A Cock and Bull Story +
Coco +
Coffee and Cigarettes =
Cold Mountain =
Collateral +
The Color of Money =
The Commitments *
Contact =
Control Room =
The Conversation =
Cookie's Fortune =
The Cooler =
Coraline =
The Corporation =
Crash (cinema) =
Crash (DVD) +
Crazy Rich Asians =
Crimes and Misdemeanors +
Darkest Hour +
Dating Amber =
Day & Night (3D) +
Dazed and Confused *
Dead Poets Society +
Dead Man's Shoes +
Dean Spanley =
The Death of Stalin +
Death Proof +
Deconstructing Harry +
Deep Throat =
Denial =
The Departed =
Derailroaded +
The Descent -
Despicable Me =
Despicable Me 2 =
The Devil's Advocate =
Die Another Day =
Diego Maradona +
DiG! +
Diner +
District 9 +
Django Unchained +
Documentary: The Margins of Reality -
Dog Altogether +
Dogville *
Do I Sound Gay? +
Donnie Brasco =
Donnie Darko +
Donnie Darko: The Director's Cut +
Double Indemnity +
Down by Law =
Downfall +
Draft Day -
Drive +
Drugstore Cowboy =
Due Date =
The Falling =
The Farewell +
Fargo (DVD) +
Fargo (Netflix) +
The Fast and the Furious =
Fast Food Nation +
Fast Times at Ridgemont High =
The Favourite +
Ferris Bueller's Day Off =
Festival Express (cinema) *
Festival Express (DVD) *
50 First Dates =
Fight Club +
Film Stars Don't Die in Liverpool +
The Final Year +
Finding Forrester =
Finding Neverland =
Finding Vivian Maier +
First Man +
5x2 +
500 Days of Summer =
The Five-Year Engagement =
Flags of Our Fathers =
The Florida Project +
Following James Joyce, Dublin to Buffalo +
The Football Factory =
Forgetting Sarah Marshall =
Forrest Gump +
The Founder +
Four Lions +
Four Weddings and a Funeral =
The 40 Year Old Virgin +
Frances Ha +
Frankie and Johnny +
Frankie Boyle Live +
Frankie Howerd on Campus -
Freaky Friday +
Friday Night Lights +
Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe *
Friends with Benefits =
Frost/Nixon +
Fruitvale Station +
The Full Monty +
Funny Cow +
Funny People =
Fury =

Garden State (cinema) +
Garden State (DVD) +
Gerry =
Get Out +
Gifted +
Gilda -
The Godfather: Part II +
Gonzo: The Life and Work of Dr. Hunter S. Thompson -
Good Bye Lenin! +
Goodfellas +
The Good, the Bad and the Ugly +
The Good Girl =
Good Night, and Good Luck. +
The Good Samaritan -
Good Vibrations +
Good Will Hunting +
A Good Woman -
Googlewhack Adventure +
Gosford Park *
The Grand Budapest Hotel =
Grandma +
Gravity *
The Great Global Warming Swindle +
Green Book +
Green Zone +
Gregory's Girl +
Grosse Pointe Blank =
The Guard =
A Guide to Recognizing Your Saints +

Hail, Caesar! +
Hallam Foe +
Handkerchief Drill +
Hannah and Her Sisters +
Happy-Go-Lucky +
Harold and Maude +
Hearts and Minds +
Heat =
The Heat =
Hero =
He's Just Not That Into You -
Hidden (AKA Cache) +
Hidden Figures =
Hillsborough =
The Hippopotamus +
The History Boys *
The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy =
Hollywood Ending =
Hostel =
Hot Fuzz =
The House I Live In +
House of Flying Daggers =
Hugo (3D) =
The Hunger Games =
The Hunger Games: Catching Fire =
Hunt for the Wilderpeople +
The Hurt Locker +
Husbands and Wives =
HyperNormalisation +

I Am Sam +
I, Daniel Blake +
Igby Goes Down =
I Heart Huckabees =
The Imitation Game +
The Inbetweeners Movie =
The Inbetweeners 2 =
In Bruges +
Inception (cinema) +
Inception (DVD) +
An Inconvenient Truth +
The Incredibles =
Inglourious Basterds +
Ingrid Goes West -
Inside Deep Throat =
Inside Llewyn Davis +
Inside Out *
The Interpreter -
In the Fade +
In the Land of the Deaf (AKA Le Pays des sourds) *
Invictus =
Iris =
The Iron Lady +
Irrational Man +
Isle of Dogs =
I, Tonya +
It's a Wonderful Life +

Jackie =
Jarhead =
Jaws =
Jeremy +
Jericho Days =
Jesus Camp +
Jojo Rabbit =
Joker -
Judy =
Julie & Julia +
Juno +
Just Mercy +

Kedi =
The Kids Are Alright +
The King of Comedy +
The Kings of Summer *
The King's Speech =
Kinsey -
Knives Out +
Knocked Up +
Kolja (AKA Kolya) +

Lady Bird +
Lady Chatterley +
The Lady in the Van +
La La Land +
Lars and the Real Girl +
Last Days +
The Last King of Scotland +
The Last of the First =
Legally Blonde -
The Lego Movie =
Le Mans '66 (AKA Ford v Ferrari) +
Letters from Iwo Jima +
Letter to Brezhnev =
Liberal Arts +
Life, Animated +
The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou =
Life in a Day +
Life Is Beautiful (AKA La Vita è bella) +
Like Crazy +
Limitless =
The Lion King =
Little Men +
Little Miss Sunshine +
The Lives of Others (AKA Das Leben der Anderen) *
Local Hero =
Locke =
The Loneliness of the Long Distance Runner =
Looking for Eric +
Looper -
Loose Change: 2nd Edition =
The Lost City of Z =
Love Actually +
Love and Death =
Love & Mercy +
Love Is Strange +
Love, Simon +
Lucy =

Made in Dagenham =
The Madness of King George +
Maggie's Plan +
Magic in the Moonlight +
Marjorie Prime +
The Mark of Cain =
Marley +
Marriage Story +
The Martian +
Mary Poppins =
The Master +
Match Point (cinema) +
Match Point (DVD) +
Mayor of the Sunset Strip =
Mean Girls =
Me and You and Everyone We Know +
Meet the Fockers -
Melinda and Melinda +
Memento *
The Merchant of Venice =
Mesrine: Killer Instinct =
Mesrine: Public Enemy No. 1 =
Micmacs (AKA Micmacs à tire-larigot) +
Midnight in Paris +
Mid90s +
A Midsummer Night's Sex Comedy =
Mighty Aphrodite +
A Mighty Wind =
Minions =
The Mirror -
Misbehaviour =
Miss Americana =
Miss Sloane +
Mistress America +
Moana +
Moneyball +
Monster =
Moon +
Moonlight +
Moonlight Mile *
Moonrise Kingdom =
A Most Wanted Man =
The Motorcycle Diaries =
Mrs Doubtfire =
Murderball +
Murder on the Orient Express =
The Muse =
My Best Friend's Wedding =

Napoleon Dynamite =
Neighbors -
Network +
New York Doll +
Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist =
Nightcrawler +
9 Songs =
1917 *
99 Homes +
9th Company +
Nocturnal Animals +
No Country for Old Men +
No Direction Home: Bob Dylan +
Non-Fiction +
Nora +
Northern Soul +
Notes on a Scandal +
Notting Hill =
Nowhere Boy +

Obvious Child +
Office Space +
Official Secrets =
Of Gods and Men +
On a Clear Day =
Once Upon a Time… in Hollywood +
On Golden Pond *
On the Basis of Sex +
Once Upon a Time in America =
One Day in September +
Operator +
Out of Sight =
The Outsiders -
Overlord *
The Overnighters +

Paddington +
Paddington 2 +
The Panic in Needle Park =
Pan's Labyrinth +
Parasite +
Partly Cloudy +
The Passion of the Christ -
Paterno =
Paul =
Paul Weller: Studio 150 =
The Perks of Being a Wallflower +
The Personal History of David Copperfield +
Phantom Thread +
Phone Booth +
Pickle =
Pierrepoint (cinema) +
Pierrepoint (DVD) +
Pitch Perfect +
Pitch Perfect 2 =
Play It Again, Sam =
Porky's -
Portrait of a Lady on Fire *
The Poseidon Adventure -
The Prestige =
Pretty in Pink =
Pride =
The Princess and the Frog +
The Princess Bride =
The Producers =
Professor Marston and the Wonder Women =
The Program =
Project Nim +
Proof =
A Prophet (AKA Un prophète) +
Pumping Iron +
Punk's Not Dead +
The Purple Rose of Cairo +
Puzzle +

Quick Change =
The Queen =

Radio Days =
Rain Man +
Reality Bites =
Red Lights (AKA Feux Rouges) +
Red Road +
The Red Turtle +
Remember the Titans +
Rize +
The Road +
Rocketman +
Rocky Road to Dublin =
Roger & Me +
Roger Dodger =
Roma +
Romantics Anonymous +
Romanzo criminale =
Room +
Room 237 +
Rounders +
Rush +

Saint Frances +
Saloon =
Saving Mr. Banks +
Saw =
Say Anything… +
A Scanner Darkly +
Scent of a Woman =
School Ties =
Scoop +
Scott Pilgrim vs. the World +
Sea of Love =
Searching +
Searching for Sugar Man +
Secretary =
The Selfish Giant +
Senna +
Seven Psychopaths +
Shadows and Fog =
The Shape of Water =
The Shining +
Shrek the Third =
Shut Up and Play the Hits +
Sicario +
Sicko +
Sideways =
The Silence of the Lambs +
Silent Running =
Silent Shakespeare =
Silver City =
Silver Linings Playbook +
The Simpsons Movie +
Sin City +
Singin' in the Rain =
Singles =
Sing Street +
Sin Nombre +
16 Blocks =
Skate Kitchen +
Skyfall =
Sleeper =
Sleepless in Seattle =
Slumdog Millionaire =
Small Time Crooks =
The Social Network +
Some Kind of Wonderful +
Some Like It Hot =
Somersault +
Somers Town +
Soul +
SoulBoy (cinema) +
SoulBoy (HD) +
Source Code *
The Souvenir +
Spectre =
Spellbound +
Spotlight +
Stand By Me *
Stardust Memories -
A Star Is Born (2018) +
Starsky & Hutch =
Steve Jobs +
Still Alice +
The Stone Roses: Made of Stone *
The Stone Tape -
Strictly Ballroom =
Stronger +
Style Wars +
subUrbia =
Sully =
Sunshine on Leith +
Superbad =
Super Size Me (cinema) =
Super Size Me (TV) =
Supersonic =
Sweet and Lowdown =
Sweet Sixteen +
Their Finest +
The Theory of Everything +
There Will Be Blood +
The Thin Blue Line +
The Third Man =
Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri *
Three Colours: Blue (AKA Trois couleurs: Bleu) +
Three Colours: Red (AKA Trois couleurs: Rouge) +
Three Colours: White (AKA Trois couleurs: Blac) +
Three Kings +
Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy =
To All the Boys I've Loved Before =
To All the Boys: P.S. I Still Love You =
To Rome With Love =
Toy Story 3 (3D) +
Traffic =
Training Day =
Trainwreck +
Trance =
The Trial of the Chicago 7 +
Trucker +
True Grit (2010) +
True History of the Kelly Gang -
True Stories: Biggie and Tupac =
Tsotsi +
TT3D: Closer to the Edge (2D) +
T2 Trainspotting +
12 Angry Men +
20th Century Women +
21 =
The Two Popes +
2001: A Space Odyssey *

Uncut Gems =
Under the Skin +
United 93 +
Untouchable (AKA Intouchables) +
Up (2D) *
Up in the Air +
Us +
The U.S. vs. John Lennon +

Vice +
Vicky Cristina Barcelona +

Wag the Dog +
Waking Life +
Walk the Line -
Wallace & Gromit in The Curse of the Were-Rabbit +
The War Room +
Wayne's World =
The Way Way Back +
We Are Marshall =
Wedding Crashers =
Weiner +
Le Week-end +
Whatever Works +
What Maisie Knew +
What's New, Pussycat -
What's Up, Tiger Lily? =
What We Did on Our Holiday =
When Harry Met Sally... *
When the Levees Broke: A Requiem in Four Acts +
When We Were Kings =
Whip It +
Whiplash +
Whitney +
Whitney: Can I Be Me =
Wide Sargasso Sea =
Wiener-Dog =
The Wife =
The Wind That Shakes the Barley +
Winter's Bone =
Won't You Be My Neighbor +
The Woodsman =
Woody Allen: A Documentary +
Working Girl -
World Trade Center -

X-Men =

Yesterday =
Your Father's Murderer: A Letter to Zachary +
Your Sister's Sister +
Youth in Revolt =
You've Got Mail (TV) =
You've Got Mail (Amazon Video) =
You Will Meet a Tall Dark Stranger +

Zelig =
Zombieland +
Zoolander =

Saturday, 12 October 2019

My 2018 10Q answers

Here we are again. A little later than previous years because it's been so hectic. I've only just binge-answered my questions for this year. But here's what I was thinking this time last year - a year that set me up for the biggest year of my life so far. This year I got married, bought an eco house and went on my honeymoon. This is what came before.

I've done this every year since 2010. As the leaves glow in the last of the summer warmth, it's a good time to reflect back on growth and stagnation, beauty and falls; and look into the haze of what is to come. If you want to do it yourself this year, and you're reading this before 23:59 on Sunday 13 October 2019, there's still time to sign up at, where you will be prompted to answer a question each day for 11 days (or 11 questions in one session if you're rushing to beat the vault slamming shut tomorrow night).

Here are my answers from 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016 and 2017. And this was on my mind a year ago in September 2018:

Day 1:

Describe a significant experience that has happened in the past year. How did it affect you? Are you grateful? Relieved? Resentful? Inspired?

My answer:

I proposed to my girlfriend, Fran, in the sea off the west coast of Wales and she said yes! I'd been thinking about it for a while, not least during 10Q last year, when I started the clock ticking by writing about it. I thought about how I wanted to do it. I decided that I wouldn't wait to ask our parents for their blessing first because I wanted Fran to be the first to know. But we had a number of lovely phone calls with our parents when we got back to the bungalow in the evening. It made everything special for a while. It still is, but we've got used to the idea. It has made us both happier than we were. I think we both knew we wanted it. I'm relieved she said yes, but I never really doubted she would. I'm inspired because I think our wedding next February will be special and will hopefully reflect the people that we were before we met, are together, and have become.

Day 2:

Is there something that you wish you had done differently this past year? Alternatively, is there something you're especially proud of from this past year?

My answer:

I'm quite proud that I've held my ground at work. Things haven't always been happy, particularly with my line manager. I've persevered through the difficult times rather than quitting and finding another job, which has been tempting. In the past week I've received some really nice feedback from four different clients. It's always nice to know that my work is appreciated.

Day 3:

Think about a major milestone that happened with your family this past year. How has this affected you?

My answer:

Fran's sister, Clare, got married to Rob in April. I wanted to wait until after their wedding before proposing to Fran. I did it the following weekend! I didn't want to detract from their special time, so I was happy to wait. Being involved in their wedding also gave us some ideas about what we do and don't want to do on our wedding day.

Day 4:

Describe an event in the world that has impacted you this year. How? Why?

My answer:

I feel like every year the outside world has less impact on me. I now consume very little news, most of it passive. There have been times, such as when I was in sixth form, when I read the paper every day. Now I just occasionally do the crossword and the weekend quiz. I don't listen to Radio 4 when I wake up in the mornings or in the car on the way to work. I don't watch TV news. My news comes secondhand and in headlines I see on social media. But also in more depth and at greater distance in podcasts. I do this for self-protection because I know the news can have a negative impact on my mental health.

GDPR has had the biggest impact at work, but I'm glad to be working for an agency rather than have to be responsible for it in-house. A lot of the reaction seems silly to me and over-cautious. I'm glad I don't have to make those decisions. There was that crazy week leading up to 25 May when any organisation who ever collected my email address emailed me to inform me about their new privacy policy. Some of my favourite sites, such as Instapaper, have also been unavailable for a while until they get their house in order. It seems against the fucking point of the internet to shut down your operations in a country for regulatory reasons. I'm also not precious about my personal data as long as I'm able to opt out easily.

Day 5:

Have you had any particularly spiritual experiences this past year? How has this experience affected you? "Spiritual" can be broadly defined to include secular spiritual experiences: artistic, cultural, and so forth.

My answer:

I was driving home from work yesterday, two turns from my road. A girl cycled past. She was young, perhaps 12 or 13, and reminded me of "Ladybird". She had a blissful look on her face, as if she was singing along to music that may have been playing through her headphones. There was promise in her eyes and excitement about what was to come. She still seemed to be discovering and creating who she was. As I rounded the corner, I realized that Fran and I have already become the people we're going to become. You are who your record says you are. We are who we thought we were. We're not going to change that much. We've fulfilled our potential, reached adulthood. We're close to buying a house together, for goodness' sake. I felt OK with this. I'm mostly happy with who I am. There are a few things I will continue to try to tweak, but I'm comfortable in my skin. I'm not going to play rugby for Scotland; I'm not going to be a journalist and a writer of books (well, maybe one day…); I'm not going to have a DPhil; I'm no longer a card-carrying Joycean (although I still carry it in my heart); I'm not a referee; I'm not a member of Sol Samba. I've quit a lot of things. I'm honing myself down rather than adding more layers. So this was spiritual in the sense of passing another young soul and realizing that my soul is settled, has found a home, a partner, a comfort. A very gentle revelation, but a revelation, a realization nonetheless.

Day 6:

Describe one thing you'd like to achieve by this time next year. Why is this important to you?

My answer:

I'd like to buy a house. There. I've said it. Another milestone on the way to boring adulthood. I never thought I'd buy a house. I couldn't afford it. But Fran's parents gave us a very generous gift at the end of last year, which has changed our thinking about the possibilities. We now realize that we're in a very fortunate position. We're a lot better off than others - although the part of the country we live in means our money doesn't go as a far as it would do elsewhere. We joke when watching "Location, Location, Location" that we could buy two or three houses for that price. We also joke that even if we won the Premium Bonds, we still couldn't afford to buy a house in our street. We've been looking in earnest since the beginning of the year. I put the brakes on to make sure we'd spent enough time looking to see what's out there; mentally testing what it would be like to live elsewhere, in the country, or in another town or another part of town. We're quite close to buying something. We've got an appointment on Sunday to be financially approved for a new housing development called Elmsbrook in north-west Bicester. We saw this early in the year, and probably could have bought then, but I wanted to wait a bit. I'm glad we did. Things could start to move very quickly over the next few weeks. But we won't actually complete until Q2 next year, which suits us perfectly: coming after the wedding and after the break clause in our current tenancy. To be honest, I'd be quite happy to continue living where we are; but there is an appeal to owning something new and shiny and making it our own, starting a new chapter in life, perhaps making a community around us. Living by example. I've lived in Oxford for half my life. It's part of my identity. So I am somewhat reluctant to leave.

Day 7:

How would you like to improve yourself and your life next year? Is there a piece of advice or counsel you received in the past year that could guide you?

My answer:

I know I should eat less salt, fewer salty snacks and treats, exercise more, read more, spend less time playing fucking "New Star Soccer" or whatever my latest mild addiction is on my phone. I don't have the willpower. Or I know things aren't serious enough yet. But I'll probably regret it one day. But why not enjoy life? Why feel guilty? It's an ongoing thing that I've probably written about in previous years. I should get more sleep. Phone my parents more often. Is it getting boring yet? It's a tradition that I bang on about the same old things until eventually I realize that I've changed. It's worked in other parts of my life, so why not this one?

Day 8:

Is there something (a person, a cause, an idea) that you want to investigate more fully in the coming year?

My answer:

I want to see if I can influence the culture of my company, Torchbox, to be more like the philosophy in "Making Websites Win". I found it incredibly inspiring to read this book. I wanted to work for an organization that thinks and works like that. I could take the easy route and quit my job and go to work for Conversion Rate Experts. But I want to try this first. I know there are some people who agree with me, who will be equally inspired. This might mean speaking about the book in a Short Sharing Session (on my to-do list); or overseeing a project that follows these principles. My line manager is supportive; as are Tom and Olly, the directors (I think); and Will, our salesman, is interested. We just need to find the right clients and the right team and way of working. I'm sure I'll find it frustrating and disappointing and underwhelming. But I'm prepared to give it a go.

Day 9:

What is a fear that you have and how has it limited you? How do you plan on letting it go or overcoming it in the coming year?

My answer:

I'm afraid of having children. I'm not planning to let it go or overcome it in the coming year. I don't feel ready for it yet. We were just saying over dinner this evening that we're glad we're not young and that we don't want to be responsible for brining a new person into a world that has to deal with all the shite that young people face on the internet and in life. I'm sure there's a whole part of my brain and personality that isn't be exercised by my child phobia, but I'm happy for it to be dormant for the time being. Its time will come if it's meant to be. Everything will be alright in the end, and if it's not alright, it's not the end.

Day 10:

When September 2019 rolls around and you receive your answers to your 10Q questions, how do you think you'll feel? What do you think/hope might be different about your life and where you're at as a result of thinking about and answering these questions?

My answer:

I think I'll feel the same as I usually do: glad I did it, not particularly surprised by anything; pleased to see some development, even if at a glacial pace. Even the big moments in life, like proposing to Fran, are taken in stride. I wonder if I will feel any different about the children thing. That's a recurring theme from previous years. Will being married make me feel any different? I'm not looking forward to all the sly (and not-so-sly) hints about it, particularly on our wedding day. I got really upset when someone said that during the speeches at Dave Harris's wedding. You may be family, but it's none of your fucking business. I may have to put my very gently 'booted foot down and make it known that that kind of comment is not welcome.

Day 11:

What are your predictions for the coming year?

My answer:

Brazil, wedding, house, honeymoon, love, joy.


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